I got accepted into nursing school! School starts August 10th. : )
“We can be confident that His desire to reveal will always be greater than our desire to know.” – Carrie Anna Pearce
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Can I have your attention please!
Wow!
The month of June has literally been a roller coaster ride for myself. The emotions I have experienced have been anywhere from excited and joyful to down right frustrated and depressed. Through all of this perseverance I feel like I am becoming a more genuine follow of my Jesus. I feel like I am to the point where I am yearning Him, because I have nothing else to yearn. Nothing else is going to make me feel the way He does.
A few nights ago I felt as if I had hit rock bottom. I have not been living the life I was created for. I've truthfully been living a life for me, and not for God. I sat down and started writing in my good ol' notebook. I created a list of the reasons why I thought I was depressed.
1. Worried about the future (School, a job, Taylor)
2. No accountability
3. Neglecting church and the Word
4. Personal dislikes about myself
As I was going through the Bible searching for answers, I came across my you version account on line. For that moment I put off my list and started looking through the website. I'm easily distracted might I add! I decided to look through the new reading plans that had been added since I had last been on. I discovered one I thought I would enjoy and checked out that days plan.
The very first thing I read was this.
I am worn out from sobbing. All night I flood my bed with weeping, drenching it with my tears. Psalm 6:6
This particular verse is about David pouring out his all and being completely honest with God. Even though God has our life planned out right in front of Him, He still wants to hear from us. He wants to hear our pain and agony. He wants to know what is upsetting us to the point where we feel like we can not go on. He wants us to turn to Him and say "okay God, I can't do this on my own like I thought I could." The sentence at the end of this content really caught my eye.
"Be honest with God, and he will help you turn your attention from yourself to him and his mercy."
I will be completely honest, here lately my attention has been directed at me and only me. What will be best for me, what happens if I don't get into school, will I be able to find a job if I don't get in to school? All these thoughts have been racing through my mind. But you know what, it's not about me. It's about the One who can and will take all this pain away.
So God, here is my attention directed rightfully at You, and only You.
<3
The month of June has literally been a roller coaster ride for myself. The emotions I have experienced have been anywhere from excited and joyful to down right frustrated and depressed. Through all of this perseverance I feel like I am becoming a more genuine follow of my Jesus. I feel like I am to the point where I am yearning Him, because I have nothing else to yearn. Nothing else is going to make me feel the way He does.
A few nights ago I felt as if I had hit rock bottom. I have not been living the life I was created for. I've truthfully been living a life for me, and not for God. I sat down and started writing in my good ol' notebook. I created a list of the reasons why I thought I was depressed.
1. Worried about the future (School, a job, Taylor)
2. No accountability
3. Neglecting church and the Word
4. Personal dislikes about myself
As I was going through the Bible searching for answers, I came across my you version account on line. For that moment I put off my list and started looking through the website. I'm easily distracted might I add! I decided to look through the new reading plans that had been added since I had last been on. I discovered one I thought I would enjoy and checked out that days plan.
The very first thing I read was this.
I am worn out from sobbing. All night I flood my bed with weeping, drenching it with my tears. Psalm 6:6
This particular verse is about David pouring out his all and being completely honest with God. Even though God has our life planned out right in front of Him, He still wants to hear from us. He wants to hear our pain and agony. He wants to know what is upsetting us to the point where we feel like we can not go on. He wants us to turn to Him and say "okay God, I can't do this on my own like I thought I could." The sentence at the end of this content really caught my eye.
"Be honest with God, and he will help you turn your attention from yourself to him and his mercy."
I will be completely honest, here lately my attention has been directed at me and only me. What will be best for me, what happens if I don't get into school, will I be able to find a job if I don't get in to school? All these thoughts have been racing through my mind. But you know what, it's not about me. It's about the One who can and will take all this pain away.
So God, here is my attention directed rightfully at You, and only You.
<3
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Step by step.
Life is just flat out hard sometimes. :(
but...
I stand firm in my belief that God is glorified during those times we think we can not take that next step. We may give up on everything else, but we must continue to walk in faith. We have to believe He is right there with us. He is cheering us on, knowing we are completely capable of anything.
That next step you are going to take might be unknown by you, but it is known by our Creator. :) So don't worry about what is going to happen next. He already knows, and He is going to take care of everything for you! With each step you take, bring glory to our God & make him proud!
The Bahamas-2011
but...
I stand firm in my belief that God is glorified during those times we think we can not take that next step. We may give up on everything else, but we must continue to walk in faith. We have to believe He is right there with us. He is cheering us on, knowing we are completely capable of anything.
That next step you are going to take might be unknown by you, but it is known by our Creator. :) So don't worry about what is going to happen next. He already knows, and He is going to take care of everything for you! With each step you take, bring glory to our God & make him proud!
The Bahamas-2011
Thursday, May 26, 2011
What have I gotten myself into?
Well it is official. I have made the transition. I am once again a resident of the town I grew up in.
& it's no bueno. I am not handling the change very well. I've been down in the dumps, shed a few tears and I have not been getting much sleep.
I've been lonely. It's really hard for me to make friends, so a certain prayer lately has been for friendships to prosper.
I have to constantly keep reminding myself that this isn't about me though. May all the glory go to God. <3
& it's no bueno. I am not handling the change very well. I've been down in the dumps, shed a few tears and I have not been getting much sleep.
I've been lonely. It's really hard for me to make friends, so a certain prayer lately has been for friendships to prosper.
I have to constantly keep reminding myself that this isn't about me though. May all the glory go to God. <3
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
3 more days!
When I look back and think about how often I tried to find another job, I am so thankful it never happened. God's plan for me was/is so much more magnificent then what I was trying to plan for myself. Now I feel silly when I think about all the times I was so determined on leaving this job and starting a new one.
I am so thankful for his plan overriding mine : )
Jeremiah 29:11 is the perfect verse for this situation, "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Now my time has finally come! I have 3 more days left at Quiznos. I have absolutely no doubt in my mind that this is exactly what God has planned for me. His plans for me for the near future are still unknown. This probably sounds scary to some, but for me it is pure excitement. I know from previous experiences, for me to plan my future it would be a complete waste of time. It is already planned for me, I just have to wait for God to reveal it to me when he knows I am ready.
For now, I will rest in the comfort of his love.
I am so thankful for his plan overriding mine : )
Jeremiah 29:11 is the perfect verse for this situation, "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Now my time has finally come! I have 3 more days left at Quiznos. I have absolutely no doubt in my mind that this is exactly what God has planned for me. His plans for me for the near future are still unknown. This probably sounds scary to some, but for me it is pure excitement. I know from previous experiences, for me to plan my future it would be a complete waste of time. It is already planned for me, I just have to wait for God to reveal it to me when he knows I am ready.
For now, I will rest in the comfort of his love.
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Christ Ambassador
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've received I will sow.
Monday, May 2, 2011
The countdown begins!
May 13th: Last day of work!
May 15th: Fly out to Florida.
May 16th: Leave on a boat for the next 4 days for some much needed R&R.
May 20th: Arrive back into Oklahoma into the arms of my love <3
May 21st: Watch my little cousin get married :)
May 31st: Be completely moved to Hennessey.
& that's all I know.
I am giving up my life of comfort. This opportunity is allowing me to completely rely on my God to provide and lead me. & I wouldn't have it any other way.
May 15th: Fly out to Florida.
May 16th: Leave on a boat for the next 4 days for some much needed R&R.
May 20th: Arrive back into Oklahoma into the arms of my love <3
May 21st: Watch my little cousin get married :)
May 31st: Be completely moved to Hennessey.
& that's all I know.
I am giving up my life of comfort. This opportunity is allowing me to completely rely on my God to provide and lead me. & I wouldn't have it any other way.
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Change is in the air :)
It's truly magnificent to look back on my past and really see the hands of God at work. He has been slowly molding me into this perfect creation of His.
Change:[cheynj]
verb (used with object)
Change:[cheynj]
verb (used with object)
1.
to make the form, nature, content, future course, etc., of (something) different from what it is or from what it would be if left alone: to change one's name; to change one's opinion; to change the course of history.
Friday May 13th will be the last day I will ever make a Quiznos sandwich. It's a bitter sweet feeling knowing on May 14th I will no longer have the kind of responsibility I have had for the past 3 years. The next 2 weeks will be followed by a much needed vacation, packing up all my belongings and stuffing them into a storage unit and soaking in the changes in store for myself.
I'm one of those people who has had a certain prayer for quite some time now. It's been one of those prayers that always ended with God telling me "No." I am slowly beginning to see why my prayer always got turned down. It's only because what I wanted for myself, would never compare with what God has in store for me.
God has made me extremely content with what is in store for the future. Maybe because the only thing he knows I have left to do is to completely put all of my trust in Him. And that is exactly what I am doing. :)
I will be moving back to good ol' Hennessey to help on the farm this summer. The past 7 months have been very rocky for my family, so I feel that this is where I need to be for the time being. I already know there will be struggles for the 2 months I will be back home, but in James 1:2-4 tells me to accept these struggles with joy. I will persevere through each struggle with a joyful heart.
Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him. James 1:12
to make the form, nature, content, future course, etc., of (something) different from what it is or from what it would be if left alone: to change one's name; to change one's opinion; to change the course of history.
Friday May 13th will be the last day I will ever make a Quiznos sandwich. It's a bitter sweet feeling knowing on May 14th I will no longer have the kind of responsibility I have had for the past 3 years. The next 2 weeks will be followed by a much needed vacation, packing up all my belongings and stuffing them into a storage unit and soaking in the changes in store for myself.
I'm one of those people who has had a certain prayer for quite some time now. It's been one of those prayers that always ended with God telling me "No." I am slowly beginning to see why my prayer always got turned down. It's only because what I wanted for myself, would never compare with what God has in store for me.
God has made me extremely content with what is in store for the future. Maybe because the only thing he knows I have left to do is to completely put all of my trust in Him. And that is exactly what I am doing. :)
I will be moving back to good ol' Hennessey to help on the farm this summer. The past 7 months have been very rocky for my family, so I feel that this is where I need to be for the time being. I already know there will be struggles for the 2 months I will be back home, but in James 1:2-4 tells me to accept these struggles with joy. I will persevere through each struggle with a joyful heart.
Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him. James 1:12
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
In everything give thanks.
Literally. Whether it be raining, or because you are poor, or because you lost your softball game.
Things could always be worse, like a severe drought, you could be blind, or you could be in a wheel chair.
Give thanks for breath, for left over food, and for the junky shoes you wear.
Be joyful always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus. 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Oh Dory..
I was at work today and thought of a great blog topic.
However, I will not be blogging about it.
Thanks Dory.
Every blessing You pour out I’ll turn back to praise. When the darkness closes in Lord, still I will say, “blessed be the name of the Lord, blessed be Your name.”
Friday, June 25, 2010
Perfecting my cookie making skills.
Almost a year ago I was attempting to make pumpkin chocolate chip cookies from scratch. As I pulled my first batch out of the oven something was very wrong. They were flat as pancakes. Now we all know chocolate chip cookies are supposed to raise while they bake. Well these cookies did not.
I could not figure out what I had done wrong. After a phone call to grandma we came to the conclusion to add more flour. Next batch looked exactly the same as the first, but tasted like a flour mill.
What on earth had I done!? I went back over the steps one by one. I then looked at the recipe name and realized it said pumpkin bread, instead of pumpkin chocolate chip cookies.
How I managed to pull this one off I have no idea. It was rather embarrassing telling my grandma and mom what I had done, but we all got a good laugh out of it in the end.
These pumpkin chocolate chip cookies have haunted me till this day. Every time my roommate and I are talking with others about cooking and baking, I am always quick to say Brittany has the cookie making skills. I just never mastered the art of making cookies for some reason. Unless they are the no bake chocolate oatmeal cookies. : )
I had a very kind and generous person in my life mow my yard last night. In appreciation I wanted to do some thing for him. What a better time to practice my cookie making skills!
I am very happy to say the cookies are normal! They look like cookies, and taste like them too! I think the brand new cookie sheet my mom got me helped a bit. : )
All in all i mastered a batch of cookies with out destroying them and having to throw them away. Tis going to be a wonderful day!
If we are out of our mind, it is for the sake of God; if we are in our right mind, it is for you. 2 Corinthians 5:13
I could not figure out what I had done wrong. After a phone call to grandma we came to the conclusion to add more flour. Next batch looked exactly the same as the first, but tasted like a flour mill.
What on earth had I done!? I went back over the steps one by one. I then looked at the recipe name and realized it said pumpkin bread, instead of pumpkin chocolate chip cookies.
How I managed to pull this one off I have no idea. It was rather embarrassing telling my grandma and mom what I had done, but we all got a good laugh out of it in the end.
These pumpkin chocolate chip cookies have haunted me till this day. Every time my roommate and I are talking with others about cooking and baking, I am always quick to say Brittany has the cookie making skills. I just never mastered the art of making cookies for some reason. Unless they are the no bake chocolate oatmeal cookies. : )
I had a very kind and generous person in my life mow my yard last night. In appreciation I wanted to do some thing for him. What a better time to practice my cookie making skills!
I am very happy to say the cookies are normal! They look like cookies, and taste like them too! I think the brand new cookie sheet my mom got me helped a bit. : )All in all i mastered a batch of cookies with out destroying them and having to throw them away. Tis going to be a wonderful day!
If we are out of our mind, it is for the sake of God; if we are in our right mind, it is for you. 2 Corinthians 5:13
Thursday, June 24, 2010
I have not blogged in a long time.
I started this blog in September 2009. I made a few blogs at first, but I ended up deleting them shortly after when I decided blogging was stupid.
Nine months later here I am.
I realize now the reason why I quit blogging was because I thought I didn't have time for it. Which probably at the time was true. I was a busy woman. Working 45-50 hours a week, taking care of a dog and 2 cats, being involved in a long term relationship and balancing God in my life consumed me.
The only thing that is different now is I am not taking care of a dog and 2 cats anymore & also the obvious. Which, if you do know me, you know what I am talking about. If you have no idea what I am talking about, well then it doesn't really matter anyways.
Time is precious to me. Once today is over, you never get it back.
The words "I don't have time to do this" or "I would love to, but I don't have time" were coming out of my mouth way too often. Things are different now.
I have made time in my life for more important things, rather than the little things. I feel these more important things in my life, which I have allowed to become a bigger part of my life, has allowed me to feel I am spending my time more wisely. I do not feel like I am wasting precious time on useless things anymore.
Now that I am more understanding of my time, hopefully I will be able to write more. It's something I enjoy doing. I also feel it's only fair I share my crazy/random thoughts with others.
<3
Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. Galatians 5:25
The heavens declare the glory of God; the skies proclaim the works of his hands. Psalm 19:1
I started this blog in September 2009. I made a few blogs at first, but I ended up deleting them shortly after when I decided blogging was stupid.
Nine months later here I am.
I realize now the reason why I quit blogging was because I thought I didn't have time for it. Which probably at the time was true. I was a busy woman. Working 45-50 hours a week, taking care of a dog and 2 cats, being involved in a long term relationship and balancing God in my life consumed me.
The only thing that is different now is I am not taking care of a dog and 2 cats anymore & also the obvious. Which, if you do know me, you know what I am talking about. If you have no idea what I am talking about, well then it doesn't really matter anyways.
Time is precious to me. Once today is over, you never get it back.
The words "I don't have time to do this" or "I would love to, but I don't have time" were coming out of my mouth way too often. Things are different now.
I have made time in my life for more important things, rather than the little things. I feel these more important things in my life, which I have allowed to become a bigger part of my life, has allowed me to feel I am spending my time more wisely. I do not feel like I am wasting precious time on useless things anymore.
Now that I am more understanding of my time, hopefully I will be able to write more. It's something I enjoy doing. I also feel it's only fair I share my crazy/random thoughts with others.
<3
Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. Galatians 5:25
The heavens declare the glory of God; the skies proclaim the works of his hands. Psalm 19:1
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
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